Feastday: October 1 Patron of
the Missions
Generations of Catholics
have admired this young saint,
called her the "Little
Flower", and found in her
short life more inspiration
for own lives than in volumes
by theologians.
Yet Therese died when she
was 24, after having lived as
cloistered Carmelite for less
than ten years. She never went
on missions, never founded a
religious order, never
performed great works. The
only book of hers, published
after her death, was an brief
edited version of her journal
called "Story of a Soul."
(Collections of her letters
and restored versions of her
journals have been published
recently.) But within 28 years
of her death, the public
demand was so great that she
was canonized.
Over the years, some modern
Catholics have turned away
from her because they
associate her with over-
sentimentalized piety and yet
the message she has for us is
still as compelling and simple
as it was almost a century
ago.
Therese was born in France
in 1873, the pampered daughter
of a mother who had wanted to
be a saint and a father who
had wanted to be monk. The two
had gotten married but
determined they would be
celibate until a priest told
them that was not how God
wanted a marriage to work!
They must have followed his
advice very well because they
had nine children. The five
children who lived were all
daughters who were close all
their lives.
Tragedy and loss came
quickly to Therese when her
mother died of breast cancer
when she was four and a half
years old. Her sixteen year
old sister Pauline became her
second mother -- which made
the second loss even worse
when Pauline entered the
Carmelite convent five years
later. A few months later,
Therese became so ill with a
fever that people thought she
was dying.
The worst part of it for
Therese was all the people
sitting around her bed staring
at her like, she said, "a
string of onions." When
Therese saw her sisters
praying to statue of Mary in
her room, Therese also prayed.
She saw Mary smile at her and
suddenly she was cured. She
tried to keep the grace of the
cure secret but people found
out and badgered her with
questions about what Mary was
wearing, what she looked like.
When she refused to give in to
their curiosity, they passed
the story that she had made
the whole thing up.
Without realizing it, by
the time she was eleven years
old she had developed the
habit of mental prayer. She
would find a place between her
bed and the wall and in that
solitude think about God,
life, eternity.
When her other sisters,
Marie and Leonie, left to join
religious orders (the
Carmelites and Poor Clares,
respectively), Therese was
left alone with her last
sister Celine and her father.
Therese tells us that she
wanted to be good but that she
had an odd way of going about.
This spoiled little Queen of
her father's wouldn't do
housework. She thought if she
made the beds she was doing a
great favor!
Every time Therese even
imagined that someone was
criticizing her or didn't
appreciate her, she burst into
tears. Then she would cry
because she had cried! Any
inner wall she built to
contain her wild emotions
crumpled immediately before
the tiniest comment.
Therese wanted to enter the
Carmelite convent to join
Pauline and Marie but how
could she convince others that
she could handle the rigors of
Carmelite life, if she
couldn't handle her own
emotional outbursts? She had
prayed that Jesus would help
her but there was no sign of
an answer.
On Christmas day in 1886,
the fourteen-year-old hurried
home from church. In France,
young children left their
shoes by the hearth at
Christmas, and then parents
would fill them with gifts. By
fourteen, most children
outgrew this custom. But her
sister Celine didn't want
Therese to grow up. So they
continued to leave presents in
"baby" Therese's shoes.
As she and Celine climbed
the stairs to take off their
hats, their father's voice
rose up from the parlor below.
Standing over the shoes, he
sighed, "Thank goodness that's
the last time we shall have
this kind of thing!"
Therese froze, and her
sister looked at her
helplessly. Celine knew that
in a few minutes Therese would
be in tears over what her
father had said.
But the tantrum never came.
Something incredible had
happened to Therese. Jesus had
come into her heart and done
what she could not do herself.
He had made her more sensitive
to her father's feelings than
her own.
She swallowed her tears,
walked slowly down the stairs,
and exclaimed over the gifts
in the shoes, as if she had
never heard a word her father
said. The following year she
entered the convent. In her
autobiography she referred to
this Christmas as her
"conversion."
Therese be known as the
Little Flower but she had a
will of steel. When the
superior of the Carmelite
convent refused to take
Therese because she was so
young, the formerly shy little
girl went to the bishop. When
the bishop also said no, she
decided to go over his head,
as well.
Her father and sister took
her on a pilgrimage to Rome to
try to get her mind off this
crazy idea. Therese loved it.
It was the one time when being
little worked to her
advantage! Because she was
young and small she could run
everywhere, touch relics and
tombs without being yelled at.
Finally they went for an
audience with the Pope. They
had been forbidden to speak to
him but that didn't stop
Therese. As soon as she got
near him, she begged that he
let her enter the Carmelite
convent. She had to be carried
out by two of the guards!
But the Vicar General who
had seen her courage was
impressed and soon Therese was
admitted to the Carmelite
convent that her sisters
Pauline and Marie had already
joined. Her romantic ideas of
convent life and suffering
soon met up with reality in a
way she had never expected.
Her father suffered a series
of strokes that left him
affected not only physically
but mentally. When he began
hallucinating and grabbed for
a gun as if going into battle,
he was taken to an asylum for
the insane. Horrified, Therese
learned of the humiliation of
the father she adored and
admired and of the gossip and
pity of their so-called
friends. As a cloistered nun
she couldn't even visit her
father.
This began a horrible time
of suffering when she
experienced such dryness in
prayer that she stated "Jesus
isn't doing much to keep the
conversation going." She was
so grief-stricken that she
often fell asleep in prayer.
She consoled herself by saying
that mothers loved children
when they lie asleep in their
arms so that God must love her
when she slept during prayer.
She knew as a Carmelite nun
she would never be able to
perform great deeds. " Love
proves itself by deeds, so how
am I to show my love? Great
deeds are forbidden me. The
only way I can prove my love
is by scattering flowers and
these flowers are every little
sacrifice, every glance and
word, and the doing of the
least actions for love." She
took every chance to
sacrifice, no matter how small
it would seem. She smiled at
the sisters she didn't like.
She ate everything she was
given without complaining --
so that she was often given
the worst leftovers. One time
she was accused of breaking a
vase when she was not at
fault. Instead of arguing she
sank to her knees and begged
forgiveness. These little
sacrifices cost her more than
bigger ones, for these went
unrecognized by others. No one
told her how wonderful she was
for these little secret
humiliations and good deeds.
When Pauline was elected
prioress, she asked Therese
for the ultimate sacrifice.
Because of politics in the
convent, many of the sisters
feared that the family Martin
would taken over the convent.
Therefore Pauline asked
Therese to remain a novice, in
order to allay the fears of
the others that the three
sisters would push everyone
else around. This meant she
would never be a fully
professed nun, that she would
always have to ask permission
for everything she did. This
sacrifice was made a little
sweeter when Celine entered
the convent after her father's
death. Four of the sisters
were now together again.
Therese continued to worry
about how she could achieve
holiness in the life she led.
She didn't want to just be
good, she wanted to be a
saint. She thought there must
be a way for people living
hidden, little lives like
hers. " I have always wanted
to become a saint.
Unfortunately when I have
compared myself with the
saints, I have always found
that there is the same
difference between the saints
and me as there is between a
mountain whose summit is lost
in the clouds and a humble
grain of sand trodden
underfoot by passers-by.
Instead of being discouraged,
I told myself: God would not
make me wish for something
impossible and so, in spite of
my littleness, I can aim at
being a saint. It is
impossible for me to grow
bigger, so I put up with
myself as I am, with all my
countless faults. But I will
look for some means of going
to heaven by a little way
which is very short and very
straight, a little way that is
quite new.
" We live in an age of
inventions. We need no longer
climb laboriously up flights
of stairs; in well-to-do
houses there are lifts. And I
was determined to find a lift
to carry me to Jesus, for I
was far too small to climb the
steep stairs of perfection. So
I sought in holy Scripture
some idea of what this life I
wanted would be, and I read
these words: "Whosoever is a
little one, come to me." It is
your arms, Jesus, that are the
lift to carry me to heaven.
And so there is no need for me
to grow up: I must stay little
and become less and less."
She worried about her
vocation: " I feel in me the
vocation of the Priest. I have
the vocation of the Apostle.
Martyrdom was the dream of my
youth and this dream has grown
with me. Considering the
mystical body of the Church, I
desired to see myself in them
all. Charity gave me the key
to my vocation. I understood
that the Church had a Heart
and that this Heart was
burning with love. I
understood that Love comprised
all vocations, that Love was
everything, that it embraced
all times and places...in a
word, that it was eternal!
Then in the excess of my
delirious joy, I cried out: O
Jesus, my Love...my vocation,
at last I have found it...My
vocation is Love!"
When an antagonist was
elected prioress, new
political suspicions and
plottings sprang up. The
concern over the Martin
sisters perhaps was not
exaggerated. In this small
convent they now made up
one-fifth of the population.
Despite this and the fact that
Therese was a permanent novice
they put her in charge of the
other novices.
Then in 1896, she coughed
up blood. She kept working
without telling anyone until
she became so sick a year
later everyone knew it. Worst
of all she had lost her joy
and confidence and felt she
would die young without
leaving anything behind.
Pauline had already had her
writing down her memories for
journal and now she wanted her
to continue -- so they would
have something to circulate on
her life after her death.
Her pain was so great that
she said that if she had not
had faith she would have taken
her own life without
hesitation. But she tried to
remain smiling and cheerful --
and succeeded so well that
some thought she was only
pretending to be ill. Her one
dream as the work she would do
after her death, helping those
on earth. "I will return," she
said. "My heaven will be spent
on earth." She died on
September 30, 1897 at the age
of 24 years old. She herself
felt it was a blessing God
allowed her to die at exactly
that age. she had always felt
that she had a vocation to be
a priest and felt God let her
die at the age she would have
been ordained if she had been
a man so that she wouldn't
have to suffer.
After she died, everything
at the convent went back to
normal. One nun commented that
there was nothing to say about
Therese. But Pauline put
together Therese's writings
(and heavily edited them,
unfortunately) and sent 2000
copies to other convents. But
Therese's "little way" of
trusting in Jesus to make her
holy and relying on small
daily sacrifices instead of
great deeds appealed to the
thousands of Catholics and
others who were trying to find
holiness in ordinary lives.
Within two years, the Martin
family had to move because her
notoriety was so great and by
1925 she had been canonized.
Therese of Lisieux is one
of the patron saints of the
missions, not because she ever
went anywhere, but because of
her special love of the
missions, and the prayers and
letters she gave in support of
missionaries. This is reminder
to all of us who feel we can
do nothing, that it is the
little things that keep God's
kingdom growing.
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